feeling a bit becalmed ~

[lookingland]

you know that sense: stuck in deep waters and going nowhere fast?

i keep meaning to update this journal with interesting things on days when it isn't an update day for Reconstruction, but it never seems to happen.

i guess it's because i'm fairly busy and don't have much to share. and i'm out of the habit of writing blog posts. it was easy to ramble endlessly about the assassination project because there was always some new resource to talk about and it never bothered me to blither on the subject because i don't feel proprietary about the material ~ it's history. my other writing projects, i feel proprietary about, so i'm less inclined to discuss them.

part of it too, is that i'm just not the least bit sure what i am doing with any of it. like all of my other online ventures, the Reconstruction webcomic amuses me. it gives me a chance to doodle, play with the paints, etc. but i don't think of it as "serious" work. or that it's going anywhere. this has to be evident in the fact that i approached the endeavor without any really organized thought as to how to make it work, etc. just sort of jumped in willy-nilly.

hard to un-willy-nilly something that's off to a haphazard start. and that leaves me, as usual, feeling rudderless. i have such a sense of what i want to do with my time and my creative energies, but i can't for the life of me get into a rhythm with any of it.



the picture of the day is a bit of romance, i suppose. i love the detail of it. i found it in a gallery of felaries65's which was posted to victorianlife. i've been thinking a lot about 19th century clothing lately. i had meant to do a lot of paper dolls this year, but haven't really accomplished that.

clearly i need to get back on some sort of schedule. my creative life is such a derailment, it seems. hence, this aimless post.

: o p

Comments

[bachsoprano.livejournal.com]

Yay for paper dolls - I'd love to see some Victorian ones (and thank you for the link. I'm going to spend some time cruising around there today after I've finished my projects for the day...)

[lookingland.livejournal.com]

sorry i didn't see this (derf). victorian paper dolls? me? no way!

[snicker]

by the way, you might dig this blog (if you haven't seen it already) ~ it has some amazing fanciful old books on it: http://bibliodyssey.blogspot.com

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