time spent ~

[lookingland]

i'm seriously contemplating leaving the internet journaling and discussion communities that i belong to ~ i find it takes up a lot of energy i could be using elsewhere.

i have not made a decision, but i am having a hard time listing concrete benefits. as i am the owner/admin of LookingLand, i have no desire to eliminate the community altogether, but i am thinking of ways to improve my time there (by spending less of it perhaps).

i also was, against my wishes, appointed a moderator at another community online ~ which is fine ~ i can do anything for a couple of months. but i am remembering why i built LookingLand in the first place ~ so as not to have to spend energy trafficking in intolerance and hatred and hysteria. not that anything is so bad being a moderator ~ just don't feel called to champion a cause in which people feel entitled to insult one another ~ but then i guess that goes for anything, really.

i should perhaps lead a more contemplative life. all the hustle and bustle just feels like it breaks my spirit ~ i am shortsighted in this regard, so i will continue to pray on it.

not sure why i am bothering to post this ~ perhaps just to air my thoughts.

Comments

[lastremnant.livejournal.com]

I agree with what both of you have discussed here. It's always a dilemma for me as a writer to "want" more time to write, and then for some reason when I get that time, it isn't utilized for writing. But when I am busy, I tend to generate more ideas and desires to be writing. I can also relate to computer work and play distracting from the creative process. I sort of wish I hadn't gotten into the habit of typing when I write, then I could just go back to pen and paper more.

[lookingland.livejournal.com]

yes ~ good points and good suggestion ~ but as a pen and paper writer initially, i've found lately that i then have even less time to then type up what i've scribbled ~ i've actually had to hire someone on occasion to type pages for me.

i'm really having a hard time finding a balance in any of this.

i wonder if rearranging the furniture would help ~ sometimes just changing the environment can be refreshing ~ : D