time spent ~

[lookingland]

i'm seriously contemplating leaving the internet journaling and discussion communities that i belong to ~ i find it takes up a lot of energy i could be using elsewhere.

i have not made a decision, but i am having a hard time listing concrete benefits. as i am the owner/admin of LookingLand, i have no desire to eliminate the community altogether, but i am thinking of ways to improve my time there (by spending less of it perhaps).

i also was, against my wishes, appointed a moderator at another community online ~ which is fine ~ i can do anything for a couple of months. but i am remembering why i built LookingLand in the first place ~ so as not to have to spend energy trafficking in intolerance and hatred and hysteria. not that anything is so bad being a moderator ~ just don't feel called to champion a cause in which people feel entitled to insult one another ~ but then i guess that goes for anything, really.

i should perhaps lead a more contemplative life. all the hustle and bustle just feels like it breaks my spirit ~ i am shortsighted in this regard, so i will continue to pray on it.

not sure why i am bothering to post this ~ perhaps just to air my thoughts.

Comments

[brawi.livejournal.com]

Well, I think the lucky thing about your situation is that the internet is not going to vanish if you take some time off. You can test the grass and see if it actually is greener, and if it's not, I'm sure your hectic online life would be waiting anxiously when you get back :)

But I definitely agree - I've been trying to hectic up my life by some outside pursuits as well - piano, kendo classes, etc. Maybe you could replace a few moderating jobs with a few new pursuits :)

[lookingland.livejournal.com]

ha ~ ! yes, i think that is smart advice.

i may take an extended break here soon, as i feel like i am just always feeling burned out and the short breaks i've taken away only make me realize that i don't actually miss it much when i'm gone!