meanwhile, back at the ranch ~

[lookingland]

okay, i made up for my prior sloth and kvetching by knocking out 16 minutes of foley in 2 and a half hours (well over the average rate!).

can i play now?

: D


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the bad news is, i am clearly not prepared for confession. i still have an hour or so to think about it, but i have a feeling it's going to have to wait until monday. i hate doing this. but i even more hate making a not-well-considered confession. i'll just have to abstain from Communion on palm sunday.

it's all right. i try to remind myself to do it in solidarity with those who cannot have Communion at all.

Comments

[geckobird.livejournal.com]

I felt the same way for my confession yesterday, so I didn't go after all. You know, I have been questioned by my loved ones when I abstain from communion for just the reason you mentioned in your LJ. I mean, gosh, shouldn't such things not be questioned? Communion is something sacred, and its between me and God, right? I wouldn't want to go up there when I am not prepared and I harbor resentment or anger or something that is not healthy spiritually and have not yet gone to confession. I always wish to be prepared mentally and spiritually for such a sacred, special, and amazing sacrement. It's not something you can ever take lightly, you know? Sometimes I wonder if people go up there not out of respect and reverence but because they don't want to appear a "bad Catholic" or something. Do you ever get that feeling?

[lookingland.livejournal.com]

i think some people do go because they feel pressured. it used to give me that nails on a chalkboard feeling, but i think, as you say, the sacrament is between us as individuals and God and i know i personally have to guard against judging the worthiness of others (eeee!)

it's funny how, having missed confession when i could have (should have) gone, i feel already more prepared to go on monday. i'm just setting my day aside for it.

i hope you feel ready soon too ~ you are in my prayers.

: D

Thank you for your prayers!

[geckobird.livejournal.com]

Whenever I think of those who go up because they feel pressured, I feel a deep sadness, for they are missing out on the true beauty of this sacrement. It's a sacrement of love, and I think some people may forget that, and that's why I feel sadness for them. Hmm... it reminds me of this song by Rebecca St. James, where she sings about remembering the cross lest she forget His love divine. Aw... maybe I'll post it in my LJ... it's a beautiful song.

I too have to guard against judging others... I think it's all too easy... especially if you see someone go up without any reverance and not even cross themselves after receiving the body, and then not even bothering with the wine. But then God knows their heart not I... so sometimes I just watch the feet shuffle by and sing the eucharist song after my little prayer to avoid the temptation... This past Sunday I was pretty amazed by the variations in footwhere. Fifty people passed by me and only one pair of sandals was repeated. Oh my... does that sound awful? I really was trying hard to focus on my prayers... I just kept getting distracted... :P