on tempers and those who abuse them ~

i can understand anger. i know what rage feels like. i know what murderous rage feels like.

i also know inflicting that anger on others (even, so help me, if they deserve it) is wrong wrong wrong. not to mention it's an enormous waste of energy and poison to the soul.

so i don't understand law suits and revenge and all of that masquerading as justice. it's really so so weak. people say: so and so is a hero, so and so stood up to the man, to the system, to the whatever.

rosa parks refusing to give up her seat on a bus is heroic. that's standing up to the man.

hiring a lawyer to get millions of dollars in "damages" for something irreplaceably lost (or just ludicrous) is cowardice. it's small. it's putting a price on your dignity. it's a totally warped sense of the value of human life.

ooo ~ heavy thoughts for the morning.

~ * ~

i stopped short of finishing Snow Angels last night (it's a small book). it took a rather unexpected turn and i was hooked for a while. again, O'nan's a swell writer (with a rather unfortunate name ~ geh).

i've got six scripts to write and the dog is nagging for something ~ who knows what. i oughta take them to the park today. the weather looks okay ~ grey with a little wind. dunna like the wind. that's what makes it feel cold. still, a romp in the park seems the order of the day.

er ~ soon as i get some of this work done.

: D

peeved at recent foolishness in catholicism~

way i see it, i have two options ~ switch to "placeholders" only for the images or just bail on the community.

the sad thing is ~ i've yet to find a "Catholic" community in which troll nonsense isn't just habitual for the sad sacks with nothing better to do.

i like looking at pictures on my friends' page and i like sharing pictures. i like to keep my environment "safe" from trash and abuse. the trolls don't come that often here and the mods are pretty good at catching and clearing pretty quick, but things get by and lately i've seen more than i want to see of crap. i already bailed on another Catholic community for a picture posted that the mods apparently thought was appropriate (geh) ~ i guess it really comes down to: am i getting anything out of the community to begin with? am i learning? am i engaging? am i growing in holiness?

i have never met such rude and inflammatory and agenda-driven small-mindedness as i have in Catholic forums ~ not just from the inevitable trolls, but often from the Catholics themselves.

i ain't sayin' i'm perfect. i just know being around that sort of thing tends to bring out the worst in me and God knows i can do without it. if i ever hope to be a better a Christian, i have to be in an environment of earnest inquiry, reverence for God, and respect for others.

through no fault of anyone at this particular community, that's not hardly how i would describe my experience there after all these years and lately i've had more than my share of barf from there. so i guess that solves me opening dilemma.

good bye catholicism.

i hope i will see the gentler of your members in the devotionals forums.

~ pax et caritas