time spent ~

i'm seriously contemplating leaving the internet journaling and discussion communities that i belong to ~ i find it takes up a lot of energy i could be using elsewhere.

i have not made a decision, but i am having a hard time listing concrete benefits. as i am the owner/admin of LookingLand, i have no desire to eliminate the community altogether, but i am thinking of ways to improve my time there (by spending less of it perhaps).

i also was, against my wishes, appointed a moderator at another community online ~ which is fine ~ i can do anything for a couple of months. but i am remembering why i built LookingLand in the first place ~ so as not to have to spend energy trafficking in intolerance and hatred and hysteria. not that anything is so bad being a moderator ~ just don't feel called to champion a cause in which people feel entitled to insult one another ~ but then i guess that goes for anything, really.

i should perhaps lead a more contemplative life. all the hustle and bustle just feels like it breaks my spirit ~ i am shortsighted in this regard, so i will continue to pray on it.

not sure why i am bothering to post this ~ perhaps just to air my thoughts.