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i've mentioned elsewhere that i may give up on NaNo this year. i keep digging deeper into the muck on this one and i dunna like what i'm finding down there. the book has gone all wonky and blah blah blah (and mostly blah). i'm giving it through the rest of the week before i bail. i just keep thinking of all the other things i need to/want to do right now. seems like i should want to write this book (and i do!), but i feel like too much artificial pressure is leaning on its already narrow little windpipe. it's definitely suffering from oxygen deprivation.

i wrote a long thing about the other reasons i think i will give up the NaNo ghost, but deleted it because i didn't want to risk offending any of my NaNoing friends. just because i am jaded and cynical about some things doesn't mean i should crap on it for other people. not all things work for all people. maybe this is the year for me to admit that this doesn't work for me.

that's all.