oh hell ~

[lookingland]

i was going to write a big long post about life, death, and the meaning of it all, but i've decided instead to go have a cheeseburger before adoration.

now i know what some of you are thinking: mein Gott! how can you eat a cheeseburger before going to chapel.

well, here's how:

1.) they're half price on tuesday and that's what my pocketbook can afford.

2.) my food intake today has been a grilled cheese sandwich, a taste of goat cheese and blackberry jam, and some pecans, so really, i've had nothing of substance. not that cheeseburgers are the answer to this, but i'm hungry and i don't feel like frying fish number two (he's for tomorrow!)

3.) it's on the way.

truth is, i just can't afford to feel miserable all the time for all my petty failures. if God is testing me just now to learn patient acceptance of His will, then i have to keep my good humor about me and right now i just really need a cheeseburger, however spoiled rotten that sounds. in a way, i say it's penitential ~ because if i went to the grocery and bought real food, it would wind up being more extravagant and fast food is so bad for you.

right?

besides, i can't sit up with Jesus with a growly stomach ~ that would be obnoxious.

~ * ~

i promise i'll write something of more substance soon. i'm just trying to get over the shock of actually working today ~ hahahaha ~

: D

Comments

[annabellissima.livejournal.com]

scruples :p

I think you're doing just fine. Don't beat yourself up over a burger. Saints are not miserable people in order to become holy :)

[lookingland.livejournal.com]

hahahahaha ~ exactly: scruples.

i can waste a whole day just scrupling over the lamest things ~ and i'm just going to break the habit if it kills me. even if it means eating cheeseburgers before adoration.

i think seriously over-scrupling really is the fast-track to not fixing what really needs to be addressed in one's habits sometimes.

: D